When there's not much wind to get your sails up, where do you turn to? Porn, of course.
Jean -- my boyfriend -- isn't the type to brag about his sexual prowess, but he has some appetite. Once he mentioned his selling point among women is he can do more than one round in one night.
I like it when my man has a big sexual appetite. To me, that means he has no fuss and no qualms about what he wants in bed. Well, with Jean, that's not unexpected. I have always thought the older a man gets, the more comfortable he is about sex. So when he wants to try something new or something he has long fantasized, he tells me outright, and I would do it if I think I'll like it. (Like a true slave, eh?)
But I admit that my talent in pleasing him is very limited. I could manage to get Jean Junior up, but when he's not in the mood, it can take me a long time before I get the desired result.
"Can I watch porn?" Jean interrupted one time when I was giving him head.
When I’m busy, I don’t want to stop, so I agreed to whatever pleased him.
"Sure..." I said.
While I got busy with his balls, he reached for his phone, pressed some buttons, and started watching porn. When I was done, he told me it was a perfect combination, watching porn while being given head.
This "pornication" happened many times.
"Would you keep me company at a hotel tonight?" Jean texted one Monday.
I said yes, and after dinner with my boss, I headed to the hotel. Jean was depressed at the time, it was easy to tell, but when the girl at the front desk was surprised Jean had another visitor, she called him up and asked if the previous visitor had already left. Hearing those words made me jealous, of course. So when I came into the room, I was in a bad mood. I sat in the chair, took a few seconds of silence, and bravely asked him if it was a boy or a girl -- pertaining to the previous visitor. He said it was a frat brother, and although I refused to believe him, I conceded.
After I cleaned his ears, I tried to give him head but he refused. I insisted, but it was obvious he just wanted company. I couldn't take the visitor out of my head, I wanted to give him head so badly I thought it would restore my pride. I didn't tell him, of course, but finally he gave in and took his phone to "pornicate."
But he forgot to turn off his phone's sound, so when the video played, I heard a voice that sounded like his. And when I realized it was indeed his, I felt like a knife was stabbing me in my chest.
He made a sex video with someone else, and he attempted to use it to pornicate while I give him head.
I stopped what I was doing and gave him the silent treatment. He hates it when I do that, so he got mad and shoved the hotel phone. That was the first time I saw him so angry at me. He cursed, and said he didn't want a blowjob in the first place but because of me, he had to force himself.
I got scared of him, but even when he said some nasty things about me, I did not think less of him. Besides, it was my fault, and he apologized. I over reacted.
That happened about a month ago. Since that unfortunate event, he dropped by my place only twice...
and pornicated once.
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